ONLY WHEN MY DAUGHTER'S LIFE WAS THREATENED DID I APPRECIATE THE PRICE GOD PAYS FOR PEACE.
The phone rang one evening in our house in San Jose, Costa Rica. I was lying in bed reading a book to Angie, who was at that time three years old. At the other end of the line was the familiar voice of a key Miskito leader in the armed resistance that had been fighting against the Nicaraguan government, a person who had become a close friend in the previous year.
"John Paul," he said. "I have some difficult news. I have been informed by a very good source that there is a plan to kidnap your daughter. They want you out of the country."
Even now, I can still feel the shiver, the blood draining from my face, and the pounding of my heart.
"What are you talking about?" I responded, my drying mouth struggling to stammer intelligent words.
"I cannot give you details on the phone," he said. "We can talk tomorrow. But listen, it is very serious and it includes the three-letter boys," a reference to the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA). "You have to tell your wife to break all her routines. Don't let her go to school tomorrow. Don't open your doors. Watch carefully."
The words seemed unreal, like a dream. I knew we couldn't talk, but I could not let him go.
"Come on," I heard myself saying, "how serious is this?"
I will never forget his last words. "John Paul," he responded, "You are one of us now."
I hung up the phone and went back to Angie, who seemed never to go to sleep. My mind was racing, and a nagging question kept cropping up: "What in the world have I gotten us into?"
What I had gotten us into was peacemaking. I was part of a team of church leaders who were working intensely to bring together the leaders of the Nicaraguan government and the East Coast resistance for negotiations aimed at ending the nearly eight-year-old war. While other, more key mediators were located inside the country, they had difficulty traveling because of the tense relationship between Nicaragua and the rest of the region. In the months prior to this phone call, I had become a communication link, often shuttling messages between opposition leaders located in Costa Rica and Sandinista officials in Managua, Nicaragua.
The day after that chilling phone call, with even more frightening information, we shuttled the family out of the house and the country. In the next weeks and months I returned on my own to continue the work. Eventually, negotiations were arranged and a cease-fire was put in place, but in the process, those who did not want a separate Indian negotiation increased their threats and violence. During that restless night -- and many times since -- I have often been haunted by a nagging thought: "Peace is a noble pursuit, but at what price?"
Since those years in Nicaragua, I have had many opportunities to work in settings of protracted conflict and wars. Wars emerge for complex reasons with many levels of activity and consequence -- from the histories of animosity and strife between peoples that date back generations to the interactions of nations and their powerful but complicated interests.
Those who, like myself, operate in an Anabaptist framework often talk of peace; yet, in real-life international conciliation, peace-building represents an enormously complex task. In the midst of war, to understand the feelings and perceptions of people involved is already difficult. To help create the space needed for reconciliation seems remote at best and, most of the time, a hopelessly utopian dream. Consistently, I find myself faced with perplexing questions: How do we move from the words about peace to the practice of reconciliation? How can we promote a concern for human life and justice in settings of devastating violence and oppression?
Much of my time is spent working with and between enemies. Time and again -- whether in Nicaragua, Somalia, or the Philippines -- I am with people who threaten, and feel threatened by, each other, who have both experienced and engaged in the taking of life, who are suspicious and suspected, who know hate and have hated. As a peacemaker I have, perhaps ironically, become increasingly wrapped up in the question of enemies. How can I ever understand their intense level of fear and animosity?
From these experiences and questions, I have struggled with the challenge of understanding the varied images of enemies in the Bible. This very personal journey began with that crazy phone call, because it represented the first time in my life that I had come face to face with an enemy that truly wanted to harm me and those I loved. The events of that night and my work since then have led me to reconsider two seemingly contradictory biblical images of enemies found in the Bible -- the cry to crush them and the call to love them.
CRUSH MY ENEMIES
For many years my convictions about peace did not push me to engage the Old Testament stories of crushing the enemy. It was not until I "became one of them" and entered that terrible world of paranoia and fear that I connected in a personal and vicarious way to the sentiment of crushing enemies found in the Old Testament.
While it was foreign to my experience to truly feel both threat and hatred, after the phone call those emotions became real. At various points, I could hear my inner community of little voices crying out, "Lord, who are these people? In the name of God, who in their right mind would threaten a three- year-old child as a means of pursuing an insignificant political objective? What kind of people would do this?"
My sense of anger and injustice only increased with the knowledge that behind it all were nameless, faceless entities. I had become the enemy of people who could hide, who could ruin lives, who for a few dollars could have me killed. At the same time, these were people who would never become known, much less held accountable. For the first time, I experienced the presence of true evil in a personal way. It was through these events that my heart bypassed my peace-loving mind and connected to the crying voice of the psalmist and the powerful message, "Lord, deliver me and crush my enemies."
Listen carefully to the psalmist's words:
I am distraught by the noise of the enemy,because of the clamor of the wicked.For they bring trouble upon me, and in anger they cherish enmity against me... .Confuse, O Lord, confound their speech;for I see violence and strife in the city.... Let death come upon them;let them go down alive to Sheol;for evil is in their homes and in their hearts. (Ps. 55:2b-3, 9, 15, NRSV)
The wicked go astray from the womb;they err from their birth, speaking lies. They have venom like the venom of a serpent, ... O God, break the teeth in their mouths;tear out the fangs of the young lions, O LORD!Let them vanish like water that runs away; like grass let them be trodden down and wither.Let them be like the snail that dissolves into slime;like the untimely birth that never sees the sun.... The righteous will rejoice when they see vengeance done;they will bathe their feet in the blood of the wicked.People will say, "Surely there is a reward for the righteous; surely there is a God who judges on earth." (Ps. 58:3-4a, 6-8, 10-11)
I would venture a guess that these texts are rarely preached from pulpits, certainly not in churches from my tradition. During the time I worked in Central America I had been close to and known the violence of war and all that it brings. I knew families that had lost their parents, children, brothers, and sisters. I had friends who lost limbs and even their lives. No matter how much I knew, it was only after the experiences of direct manipulation and the threat of violence against me that I began to understand the deep anger that accompanies fear, the frustration of helplessness, and the bitter taste of enmity. To be "one of them" was to experience, in ever so small a dose, the deep cry for a just God and the absolute dependence on God for deliverance.
GOING DOWN THE RIVER OF HATE
In the months that followed, in spite of initial pressures and threats, we achieved a measure of success by helping to bring leaders of the two sides in the Miskito-Sandinista conflict to negotiations. As part of their initial accords, they agreed to a trip into the East Coast of Nicaragua, the home territory of the indigenous leaders. For many of the exiled leaders, this was the first time in years they had returned to their homeland. For every one of them, it was the first time they had returned in the open presence of former enemies.
This was a time of both expectation and vulnerability. What was accomplished formally at the negotiating table in the capital cities was not easily implemented nor even shared in the villages where the war itself had raged. Our conciliation team was asked to accompany the returning leaders to meet their communities and talk about the peace process. It was an invitation to walk into the heart of reconciliation and all its challenges.
As one can imagine, it seemed a logical proposal, but it was not an easy task.People on both sides had questions and suspicions. The protocol and formality of negotiations in Managua hotels were gone. In the villages, it was an organic process where people stood face to face with the very enemies they had sought to control, enemies who, in many instances, had killed members of their own immediate families. We traveled by riverways days and long hours into the remote areas of the country.
For the first time, in some of the villages, people came forward to speak about local difficulties dealing with leaders on both sides of the conflict. In one particular village, people talked at length, detailing the atrocities committed by a particular local Sandinista military leader who was present at the meeting.
In situations where great pain and emotion are expressed it is difficult, if not impossible, to control what emerges from every event. That night, this Sandinista leader and several of his men were attacked and very seriously wounded. The word about this outbreak of violence spread ahead of us rapidly; by the time we reached the main city in the northeast, the Sandinista sympathizers were up in arms against what they saw as inflammatory speeches by the returning indigenous leaders. Demands were made that no further speeches be made since they created the conditions for violence.
Puerto Cabezas was the largest of the Miskito centers. The indigenous leaders were adamant about holding the public meeting to talk of the peace process in accordance with the agreements reached in the capital with the top-level Sandinistas. However, the local Sandinista leaders were of a different mind. In some instances they orchestrated open and violent responses to the returning Indians. As the day approached for the main event, an impasse set in: Miskito leaders said they would hold the public meeting; Sandinista leaders said they could not guarantee anyone's safety if they did.
The conciliation team literally worked day and night to stave off the violence, but inevitably the relationship deteriorated. The open meeting was set for noon. The afternoon and evening before, we had separate meals with both sides where we once again pleaded for restraint. We decided that, in accordance with our role as reconcilers, we would accompany Indian leaders throughout the day in the hopes that our presence might lower the likelihood of violence. In the morning, before we left the house where we were staying, we gathered to pray as a team. We prayed by name for the leaders and key persons on all sides, for those who were friends, and for those who we knew were angry and volatile.
Soon it became clear that a worst-case scenario was developing. The meeting was to be held in the baseball stadium. During the morning, people gathered in the stadium, but soon mobs appeared, particularly Sandinista youth armed with clubs, chains, and machetes. The public meeting could barely be heard over the din of angry voices. As one of the Moravian pastors opened with prayer, machine guns crackled behind us, mostly as a disruption, creating confusion. When the speeches finally ended, some members of our team accompanied the Indian leaders to their houses. I remained behind with Carlitos, a fellow member of the conciliation team, to drive out the pick-up that had been used as a podium for the speeches. In the streets around the stadium, hand-to-hand fighting and rioting broke out. Just as we were about to leave the stadium, a large mob rushed inside. They entered the only exit we had for leaving the grounds, and out of the chaos, a young Sandinista recruit pointed at me and shouted, "There's the gringo. Get him! Get him!"
At the sound of that voice there is a picture that has remained frozen in my memory. In this picture I can look out into that crowd and see the faces of young people, some whom I knew. There was a certain frenzy in their faces as their eyes turned and riveted on me. I was the enemy. Only this time, I represented the enemy they could never touch. What had for years been the source of their economic hardships, the source of the weapons for their enemies, the source of their oppression was now within their grasp. I represented America and all the suffering they could never alleviate. In their eyes I could see the years of frustration, of lost loved ones, of a pain that festers into resentment and boils over into an uncontrolled anger.
The rest is a blur of a few seconds. We leaped for the truck and started the 15 yards through the mob toward the only exit. The first thing that hit us was a logging chain that shattered the windshield, sending glass into our arms and faces. By the time we had gone a few feet, there was not a window left in the truck. I can still feel the blows of stones, a two-by-four landing on my shoulder, and the splatter of Carlitos's warm blood that hit my cheek from a blow he received in the back of the head. Miraculously, he did not pass out as he drove slowly through the stoning gauntlet.
Minutes later, we were in the local hospital, where we were cleaned and stitched up by a Cuban doctor. I remember sitting in that hospital waiting room, my eyes and head jerking at the sound of shouts or gunshots. My mind was racing with one thought, "Just take me to a safe place." I felt a fear that crossed over into paranoia.
In less than a year, I had been accused of being a Sandinista spy, my daughter's life had been threatened, I had received multiple assassination threats, I had been called a dog of the CIA, and I had been stoned.
I no longer question the suspicious, paranoid attitudes of those in war, for I know the craziness of a fearful mind that looks behind every person for a threat. I no longer wonder how it is possible that one group could see another as a real threat to their existence, for I know what it feels like to be falsely accused, arrested, and interrogated. I no longer doubt the reality of an anger that flows into hate, for I have experienced such an anger within my own heart, and I have been the object of such hatred.
When I hear those powerful, almost embittered words from the psalmist, I no longer have a need to dismiss them. Instead, in so many of the conflicts I see today around our globe, I am drawn to the cry that flows from the angry heart. I have come to believe much more deeply in the proper place of righteous indignation. In too many places around the world I have felt and seen waters running down a river of pain, echoing the psalmist's cry. I am convinced that reconciliation has a home in that river that seeks deliverance and justice.
A PARENT'S ULTIMATE SACRIFICE
Buried within these experiences with real enemies I have also heard another voice. It was the voice of God's search for reconciliation, a call to love those who do you harm. As I write these lines, I am working with Angie's Sunday-school class some six years after the events just described. This week their assignment is to memorize John 3:16: "For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life."
Since our time in Central America, having worked these past years in the context of wars, this most popular verse has taken on a whole new meaning. We have traditionally understood John 3:16 as a creedal formula. We tend to place the emphasis on the "whoever believes in him shall be saved" portion. What counts, in terms of faith, is the belief.
But look again. Embedded in the verse is a story of a parent who gave up a child. As a parent who has had my only child threatened, this story of God's loss of a son is all too real. In all my life I have never experienced anything so precious as the gift of Angie and Joshua. Even with all the challenges, all the energy expended, all the sleepless nights and the sibling fights, nothing matches the gift of a life placed in our hands for nurture, love, and growth. This is why the phone call shook me awake and made me see things differently, for I was faced with the reality of an ultimate sacrifice.
When I said that I could feel the blood drain from my face as I listened to the words on the phone that night, I meant it literally. I felt an immense internal sense of my heart being crushed. I could face a threat against me. But how could I face a threat to my only child? What activity could ever be worth losing my daughter? Was pursuing peace in Nicaragua worth the life of my child? Think about it: Is there anything you feel is so important that you would give up your child to achieve it?
Looking again at John 3:16, we find this is the very choice at the heart of God's search for reconciliation. What I find incomprehensible is that God, as a parent, gave up this most precious gift in order to be reconciled with erring, belligerent enemies. I can understand sacrifice for family or friends. I would not hesitate to give a risky blood transfusion if it meant saving the life of my child. But to do this for enemies is beyond understanding.
I can no longer take John 3:16 as simply a short formula for salvation. It also embodies a foundational ethic of reconciliation, an ethic based on a willingness to make the ultimate sacrifice on behalf of an enemy. It is an ethic undergirded and made possible only through the immeasurable love and grace of God. As the hymn states it, "O love of God, how rich and pure! / How measureless and strong! / It shall forevermore endure -- / The saints' and angels' song." It is a love like that described by the apostle Paul, who suggested that "neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God."
I have experienced that love in many ways, from the protection of our family in Central America to the grace that covers a multitude of shortcomings. Yet, while I aspire to bring this love to the world, I recognize that I barely understand its real height and depth, much less am I fully able to practice and live by it. I only know that this love ultimately sustains life and is the essence of the very nature of God, who sought reconciliation with the enemy through the sacrifice of his only child.
SEEING THE FACE OF GOD IN THE ENEMY
Several points have been important in my own understanding that may contribute to developing a practical theology of the enemy.
First, the obvious: enemies are present throughout the faith story. In fact, without enemies, the story of faith itself, of reconciliation with God, cannot be told.
As Christians, we do ourselves little favor by developing theologies of easy peace accomplished through promises of humanistic love. Quite frankly, there is nothing human about loving your enemy. To live faithfully in the face of enemies is possible only with a deep spiritual connection to God's love and a willingness to live as vulnerably as Jesus.
I am struck with the story of Jacob and Esau's reconciliation (Gen. 32-33). As the story develops, we find Jacob fearful of his brother's rage. His brother had become his worst enemy. In the midst of the journey toward his brother, Jacob fights all night with God in person, whom he claims to have "seen face to face." Then, rising in the morning, Jacob humbles himself before his feared enemy, only to discover the emotional release of reconciliation, at which point he then exclaims to his brother, the former enemy, "To see your face is like seeing the face of God."
This is the journey of reconciliation, a journey where we struggle directly with God and ultimately seek the face of God in the enemy.
Second, a theology of the enemy must integrate the cry for deliverance with the acknowledgment and rightful place of anger. Ironic as it may sound, I have come to the conclusion that the only really good peacemakers are angry pacifists who have touched the river of human pain.
Yet, facing the enemy is only possible to the degree that we are rooted in God's sustaining love and struggle with the seemingly impossible sacrifice God's love for us represents. To pursue reconciliation, we ourselves must embrace the long, sleepless night of fighting with God in ourselves before we can journey toward God and seek his face in our enemy.
This is the paradox and challenge of the enemy: to acknowledge the rightful place of anger in the cry for deliverance and simultaneously to move toward God's sacrificial, unending love. In the end, the journey of reconciliation inevitably takes us toward the enemy, and it seeks the face of God.
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JOHN PAUL LEDERACH IS DIRECTOR OF THE CONFLICT ANALYSIS AND TRANSFORMATION PROGRAM, EASTERN MENNONITE UNIVERSITY, HARRISONBURG, VIRGINIA. THIS ARTICLE IS FROM A FORTHCOMING BOOK TO BE PUBLISHED BY HERALD PRESS.
COPYRIGHT(C) 1997 BY THE AUTHOR OR CHRISTIANITY TODAY, INC./CHRISTIANITY TODAY MAGAZINE. SEPTEMBER 1, 1997 VOL. 41, NO. 10, PAGE 32
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