Decisions don't have to be as hard as we sometimes make them.
I have always had difficulty making decisions. Pondering what to order from a menu immobilizes me. Deciding where to go on a vacation preoccupies me for weeks. Weighing which academic project to give a summer's vacation to makes me reflective and anxious. It gets even more complicated and I get more confused when I consider what God wants me to do. What, I keep asking myself, is the will of God for my life? Does God want me to take a new job or to stay where I am? Does God want me to speak at a family camp next summer or to spend the week at home with my kids? Does God want me to write another book or to do more administrative work at the college? Does God want me to marry or to remain single?
I may be asking the wrong question. When we ask, "What is the will of God for my life?" we usually have in mind some decision we made in the past and now regret, or some decision we must make in the future about which we are uncertain. But the will of God has less to do with the past or future and more to do with the present. We have no power to reverse decisions we have made in the past, and we may not know in precise terms what God wants us to do in the future. But we do know what God wants us to do in the present. We already know the will of God! Thus, no matter what we have done in the past or will do in the future, we can always, always give ourselves to the will of God we know now.
THE BIBLE AND GOD'S WILL
The biblical authors do not seem to agonize much over the will of God, at least as it is popularly understood today. When they explore the subject, they do not, as we often do, struggle, waffle, and question for days on end. If anything, the question itself is often a rhetorical one that leads to a simple and unequivocal answer. For example, when a crowd of people asked Jesus about the will of God, Jesus replied, "What God wants you to do is to believe in the one He sent" (see John 6:29).
Paul was equally clear. He concluded his great theological treatise of Romans 1-11 by spelling out the most important and immediate implication. "Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God -- this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -- his good, pleasing and perfect will" (Rom 12:1-2). To believers in Thessalonica Paul exhorted, "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" (1 Thess 5:16-17).
The will of God, as it turns out, is not something we need to discover, for it is as plain as the nose on our face. Rather, it is something we need to do. God wills that we repent of our sins, believe the gospel (Mark 1:15), and obey God's commands, especially that we love God and love one another (Matt 22:37-40, John 15:12).
If in the minds of biblical authors there is agony involved, it is not in the process of discovering the will of God, but in the difficulty of doing it. Jesus knew what His mission was. He knew that it would culminate in His crucifixion. He asked His Father in heaven to "remove the cup" before His execution, yet submitted to God's will, obediently embracing His destiny of suffering and death. Likewise, the Apostle Paul did not seem to wrestle much with the problem of discerning the will of God for his life. It was doing the will of God that created such zeal and even fear in him. He spoke with great foreboding about disobeying God's will for his life: "Woe to me if I do not preach the gospel!" (1 Cor 9:16).
In the rare moments when I am ruthlessly honest with myself, I realize that my anxious efforts to discover the will of God distract me from facing the real issue. I simply do not do the will of God that is already clear to me. I would rather assign the will of God to the far-off future, where I can safely or anxiously contemplate it as a range of options from which I must choose one. That option seems far safer than treating it as it really is, a set of commands (e.g., the general principles of the Ten Commandments) that show me in no uncertain terms how I should live my life every day in the light of God's grace. My problem is not that I do not know the will of God; it is that I do not do the will of God I already know. It is not ignorance that plagues me; it is lack of faith and stubbornness of heart. I am like a child who worries about what she is going to do on the weekend as a convenient excuse for not doing the chores assigned for the day.
PAST, PRESENT, AND FUTURE
We may have difficulty discovering the will of God for our lives because we misunderstand the biblical concept of time. God dwells in eternity (Psalm 90); He is therefore not bound by time. There is no past or future to God. All times are the present to Him. But we are bound by time. There is a past to our experience, just as there is a future. We carry the past with us in the form of consequences of decisions that we have no power to change; we anticipate the future as a range of possibilities that may or may not be realized. But we can only live in the present. "I tell you," Paul wrote, "now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation" (2 Cor 6:2). We have only the present in which to love, trust, and obey God.
How we view time, then, will affect how we understand the will of God. If the will of God is associated in our minds with a bad decision we made in the past, we will become preoccupied with the past and live with regrets. "If only I had not taken that job," we will say to ourselves. "If only I had not married so quickly and impulsively." "If only I had not drunk so much that night." Soon we will begin to believe that we missed the will of God for our lives because of bad decisions we made in the past, and we will be left only with longing and regret. The past will be like the dust stirred up by a speeding car on a dirt road, which then lingers in the air and suffocates us.
If, on the other hand, we associate the will of God with a decision we must make in the future, we will become preoccupied with the future and live in anxiety. What if there is no clear direction? What if all our options are good ones, every one of which could be the will of God? What if we simply cannot decide? What if we made the wrong choice, though we have no way of knowing whether or not it is wrong? This uncertainty will cause us to keep looking ahead, always to the future, and obsess about decisions that have to be made. The future will be like a mirage that appears in the distance, shimmering, inviting us to rush toward it. But it keeps receding from us, always remaining just out of reach, refusing to yield to us.
But if we associate the will of God with decisions we can make in the present, we will be empowered to do the will of God we already know. We will direct all of our energies into the now. What is more, we will receive grace for the past. Though there is nothing we can do to reverse the past, there is much we can do to change how we respond to the past. Only God through Christ can forgive us for past sins and redeem the past by using it as a tool in the present to transform us. Thus we never have to live outside the will of God in the present if we repent of our sins and cast ourselves on the mercy of God. A person could be in prison for crimes committed in the past but still do the will of God in the present. If we do the will of God we already know, we will no longer have to live with regrets over past misdeeds but instead be able to embrace the grace of God given in the present moment. Paul describes this kind of grace as the grace of no regrets. Godly repentance will lead us into that kind of radical grace (2 Cor 7:5-12).
We will also experience the peace of God concerning the future. Of course, there is nothing we can do to control the future. It will continue to loom before us, forever eluding our grasp, surprising us with strange twists and turns. Worrying about the future will not change it. If anything, worry will keep us from doing what holds the greatest promise to INFLUENCE the future: Prepare for it in the present.
I have met people who worry so much about whether they will be able to find a stable job in the future that they never prepare themselves for need to the job they want. I have talked with people who fret so much over whether they will find a suitable marriage partner that they never become the kind of person a suitable marriage partner would want to marry.
Worry erodes the spirit, distracts the mind, dulls our creativity. It keeps us from embracing this present moment, which is the only one we have. If we use the present wisely and trust that, no matter what happened in the past or may happen in the future, God will work all things together for good for those who have been called according to His purposes (Rom 8:28), we can believe that God will redeem the past and prepare us for the future. As Jesus said, "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own" (Matt 6:34).
DECISIONS, DECISIONS
Still, we cannot avoid decisions about the future. That decisions have to be made is obvious. That the will of God may be unclear is equally obvious. So what do we do?
When I reflect on Scripture, a pattern emerges. We can make decisions about the future in freedom and with security, trusting that our decisions are within the will of God, provided we fulfill four criteria: that we seek God above all else, that we pursue our unique sense of calling, that we live within the moral boundaries prescribed in Scripture, and that we remain open to God's divine interruptions.
SEEK GOD.
The most important principle is the first: We must seek God above all else (Mt. 6:33). We should pray for God's will to be revealed. Praying itself is the will of God (1 Thess. 5:17-18). We should get advice from godly counselors about the will of God. Learning from wise people is the will of God (Prov. 19:20, 20:18). We should wait for God (Ps. 27:14), grow in wisdom (Prov. 3:6-7), ponder the Word of God (Psalm 1), and worship God (Eph. 5:18- 19). These disciplines are the will of God. In other words, seeking God for the purpose of discovering the will of God is really a secondary concern. Seeking God is itself our fundamental purpose in life. Seeking God to know His will for the future is part of a larger whole.
PURSUE YOUR CALLING.
We should also pursue a unique sense of calling. Each person's calling (or "vocation," as it is sometimes referred to) involves more than a specific job or career, which is often what we associate with the idea of a calling.
When we ask young Sarah, "What do you want to do when you grow up?" we expect her to say something like, "I want to be a doctor." Yet when Sarah reaches adulthood she will learn, as all of us learn, that a calling is really a set of multiple responsibilities based on circumstances, talents, vision, and intuition.
I am, for example, a widower and father. Circumstances require me to manage my home alone and to function as the only living parent of three children. I am also an active member of a church, a volunteer in the community, and a college professor. And I feel a deep burden to help prepare a younger generation of Christians for leadership in the world.
Doing the will of God requires that I make choices that are congruent with these various responsibilities, all of which reflect the will of God for me. I cannot in good conscience do something that would, for example, sacrifice the well-being of my children or compromise my desire to train leaders.
OBEY GOD'S MORAL COMMANDS.
Scripture establishes moral boundaries within which we come to know the will of God. Some actions are clearly out of line. I do not have to pray for God's will if I am considering marriage to an unbeliever (2 Cor. 6:14). Some motives are unacceptable, too. It is not God's will for me to become, say, a lawyer if I am motivated by avarice and pride, although being a lawyer is itself a worthy occupation. In this case God cares more about who I am than about what I do. Some positions of responsibility are off-limits, too, if in pursuing them we neglect to do the will of God we already know. I have chosen, for example, not to serve as a senior pastor in the near future because I believe it would deprive me of the time I need to raise my children.
BE OPEN TO GOD'S INTERRUPTIONS.
Finally, we should always remain open to and even pray for God's interruptions. It appears that God does at times speak clearly and directly to us about the future, showing us in no uncertain terms what we should do. On some occasions that sense of unequivocal guidance comes to us through circumstances: Many doors close, one door opens. On other occasions such guidance comes to us intuitively: We simply know what we are supposed to do. On still other occasions, God speaks to us through the prophetic voice of a fellow believer, or through a dream or vision. When God speaks so directly, we must be open to what He says and ready to do what He commands.
But God does not always interrupt. If anything, God may at times seem very quiet and distant. Does that mean He is unconcerned or disconnected? Does that imply we could actually make a bad decision, a decision contrary to the will of God, yet not even know we were making it? In such situations I think it is wise to assume that God is always clear when He needs to be, even when He is silent. Perhaps His apparent silence is the result of misguided expectations on our part.
Let's say, for example, that we want to know if option A or option B is the will of God for our lives. We pray, fast, seek counsel, study Scripture, wait on God. But still no answer comes. Could it be that both options are within the will of God, that God will bless us no matter which one we choose?
I have gone on many backpacking trips over the years. During some of those trips I have come to an intersection where the trail I was following forked, and I could find no marker indicating which path I was supposed to take. I have learned that the National Forest Service posts signs only when it is necessary. If there are no signs, as is often the case, it is because no signs are needed. Both paths will eventually lead to the same destination. I am free to choose either one with confidence that I will arrive at my chosen destination.
Some decisions we make, in other words, are not as important as we think. Or perhaps it is better to say that some decisions, however important they seem to us, are neutral if we make other, more fundamental decisions first. Option A and option B may both be acceptable, both within the will of God for the future, if we have already decided to do the will of God we know in the present.
PAUL'S DECISION MAKING
The life of the Apostle Paul illustrates this point. After Paul became a Christian he gave himself to seeking God, even to the point of withdrawing into the wilderness for a time. His greatest passion in life was to know Jesus (Phil. 1:21). Moreover, Paul was faithful to his calling as an apostle to the Gentiles. Obviously Paul honored God's moral law, even to the point of suffering (1 Cor. 4:8-13). Finally, Paul was open to God's interruptions. He set off on his first missionary journey at the prompting of the Holy Spirit (Acts 13). He traveled to Macedonia when God called him through a dream to begin evangelistic work there (Acts 16:6-10). Still, Paul seemed to make many decisions without such direct guidance. He used common sense, made decisions when necessity required them, and never doubted that they were the right ones, regardless of the outcome. He exercised freedom in the choices he made, and he lived in the security that God was with him. Paul could have chosen to travel to Alexandria first to begin his missionary work rather than to Crete. Such a decision would have set him on a different course. But the outcome would have been the same, the evangelization of the Mediterranean world.
FREE TO DO GOD'S WILL
God's will is revealed to us in Scripture; it is what God calls us to do day by day. But by His providence it is also being worked out mysteriously so that even human beings at their worst and human history at its lowest will still lead inexorably to a grand conclusion, thus fulfilling the eternal plan of God. We will comprehend the whole of God's plan only at the end, when we see all things clearly from heaven's perspective. But even in this life we may catch glimpses of it as we look back on the course of our lives and see how God's hand has been at work.
In the meantime, there is work to be accomplished, life to be lived, the will of God to be done. We are freed from bondage to the past and freed from worry about the future. We are free to do the will of God in the present, the only moment we truly have to know God, trust God, and obey God.
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GERALD L. SITTSER is an associate professor of religion at Whitworth College in Spokane, Washington. Gerald's most recent book is A Cautious Patriotism (University of North Carolina Press).
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