Confession: it's the way home when you've lost your way.
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I was riding the train home from the city late one Friday evening when a woman rushed toward the conductor. “What stop is this?” she asked, desperation in her voice.
“Lake Station,” he answered calmly.
Terror spread across her face. “Oh, no! I’ve missed my stop!” She frantically looked out the train windows for a sign of anything familiar that might suggest it was not too late to get off. Instead, all she could see was a blur of unfamiliar storefronts and a parade of dim streetlights rushing past.
A fellow commuter offered her the business card of a local taxi company.
“But where will I find a phone?” she pleaded. “I have no idea where I am.” Several passengers tried to assure her there was a phone just across the tracks at the depot. In a few moments the train rumbled to a stop. As I got off, I saw the frightened woman stumble across the tracks, clutching the taxi card in both hands.
I caught sight of our family van, its soft interior lighting tracing the silhouette of my wife and children. I opened the door and dropped into one of our four captain’s chairs. “There’s a woman who missed her stop and seems terribly upset,” I told Cheryl. “She’s trying to call a taxi.”
My wife stared out into the dark, deserted parking lot and said, “Let’s wait here until her cab arrives.” Suddenly the woman appeared from around the corner of the depot, her head in her hands. Sobbing loudly, she was headed toward the park across the street.
Cheryl and I looked at one another, nodded in agreement, then opened the van door. “Would you like us to give you a ride back to your train stop?” we asked. The woman glanced up from her tears and looked us over carefully. Slowly she walked toward our door. “We’d be glad to take you back to Central Station if you’d like,” we repeated. She peered inside, saw our three children in the back seat, then cautiously climbed in.
By the time we pulled into the Central Station parking lot, she was laughing, telling us about her recent move from Nebraska, and promising to do a good deed to someone else. In less than 10 minutes a frightened, lonely, and confused woman had become a confident, outgoing, thankful person.
WHEN WE MISS OUR STATION
The frightened woman’s experience on the train could be a useful metaphor to help us understand the powerful, transforming effect of confession on our lives. When we sin, the Bible tells us we literally “miss the mark” of God’s standard for our life. After disobedience we can experience an array of disturbing emotions. How could I have done that? Where am I now in my life? What’s happening to me? At that point, many of us would like to go back to where we “missed the mark,” but it’s too late. The train of events and consequences is rushing on, unmercifully carrying us to places we never wanted to go.
Yet that’s exactly where the power and freedom of confession can transform our life. When we agree with God that we have sinned and seek His forgiveness, we begin to experience the grace and mercy of Christ.
The Bible puts it this way, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9). In our fear and despair, we catch sight of One willing to take us back to the place we wanted to be all along.
THE ROAD HOME
So what does it feel like to go back? The Bible gives in the person of Daniel a powerful illustration of the newfound joy and freedom that confession brings. This prophet found himself in a situation remarkably similar to the hapless woman on my train. In 605 B.C., Daniel and a number of other young nobles from Jerusalem were hauled off in chains hundreds of miles to Babylon.
Though the Bible accurately portrays Daniel as a righteous man, he recognized he was far from sinless. He openly confessed he, too, had sinned and needed forgiveness (Dan. 9:20).
Whatever Daniel’s failings, the spiritual condition of Israel was far, far worse. For centuries, the people had engaged in shameless idolatry, immoral-ity, and apostasy. The day finally arrived when God’s patience ended and Jeru-salem was overrun by the armies of Babylon. Daniel and his colleagues remained in captivity for nearly 68 years.
Near the end of that time, however, Daniel came across a scroll written by a great prophet: “I, Daniel, understood from the Scriptures, according to the word of the Lord given to Jeremiah the prophet, that the desolation of Jeru-salem would last seventy years” (Dan. 9:2). Hope suddenly spread across Daniel’s aged face; he might be able to go home in just two years.
Daniel’s next move can be instructive for all of us: “So I turned to the Lord God and pleaded with him in prayer and petition, in fasting, and in sackcloth and ashes. I prayed to the Lord my God and confessed: ‘O Lord, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with all who love him and obey his commands, we have sinned and done wrong’”(9:3-5).
Daniel knew the way home was through confession. If he and his people were ever to leave Babylon, they would have to own up to their sins and seek God’s forgiveness. While Daniel was still in prayer, God sent an angel, Gabriel. “He instructed me and said to me, ‘Daniel, I have now come to give you insight and understanding. As soon as you began to pray, an answer was given, which I have come to tell you, for you are highly esteemed (9:22-23).’”
Confession brings numerous blessings into our lives: a clear conscience, reconciled relationships, and the freedom to go on with our lives. But Daniel discovered additional benefits: God answers our prayers in a swift manner, God is free to share with us new insights and understanding as to what He is doing in our lives, and He bestows on us a wonderful sense of esteem.
LET THE RIVER RUN FREE
Daniel discovered that confession brings answers to prayer in a swift manner. Unconfessed sin can frustrate and hamper our prayer life. The heavens can seem “made of brass.” Yet when we agree with God concerning our wrongdoing, the channels of our heart are suddenly cleared. We again begin to experience answers to prayer.
What happens to us is similar to an incident at Niagara Falls in the late 1940s. An early spring thaw had broken up the ice on Lake Erie into large flows that created an ice jam at the mouth of the Niagara River. For nearly two days it prevented water from entering the river. Niagara Falls went dry, and an eerie silence descended on the frightened residents of the city. When the ice jams eventually broke up, the effect was awe-inspiring. Hundreds of millions of gallons of water exploded down the river bed and were hurled over the falls.
When we confess our sin to God, the rivers of our heart begin to flow again. Our spiritual and emotional vitality is reawakened. The joy and energy of our faith cascades through our heart. As D.L. Moody put it, when we confess our sins and are reconciled to God and others, “we can go out as giants and take on the whole world.”
I once attended a prayer meeting at the Brooklyn Tabernacle in New York City. That evening, as I sat among some 1,500 people gathered for prayer, God showed me areas of my life where my heart had grown cold and indifferent. As I wept in confession and repentance, I felt someone step up behind me and put his hands on my shoulders. It was one of the pastors. He prayed a short prayer for me, then went on.
By the time the meeting was over, I experienced a resurgence of joy and power I had not known in months, possibly years. Confession had allowed the channels of my heart to clear. In the days to come, Christ was so real to me, words could hardly express my joy. That evening, God had come in “swift flight” in answer to my prayers.
A NEW SENSE OF GOD’S WILL
Confession also gives God an opportunity to share fresh insights and understanding with us. Daniel was given a vision of Israel’s future so sweeping and powerful that he was overcome. While our confession does not bring insight on the same scale, it does tend to remove the fog and confusion about our future. The direction of our life seems more certain. The will of God takes on a more distinct focus.
“Steve” struggled for years with his thought life. His battle with lust often left him confused, anxious, and unfocused. Then, at a retreat, Steve discovered the healing in confession. He realized the enormous cost he was paying for his private sin. He also understood the promise of God’s Word, “He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy” (Prov. 28:13).
That weekend Steve admitted his problem to God. He renounced the place he had given to lust in his life. He asked God to clear his life of the distraction and confusion of sin. Today, just about everyone who knows Steve would agree that he is more joyful, focused, and energetic about God’s will for his life than any time they’ve seen.
Confession brought Steve clarity, focus, and direction. Following God’s will for his life is now a daily reality for him.
THE GIFT OF HONOR
Confession also brings the exhilaration of knowing God’s esteem for us. As believers in Christ, we know God always loves us with unconditional love. Yet when we sin, we often experience a sense of sadness, even shame, knowing that our wrongful actions have interrupted our fellowship with God.
That’s why confession is so important. It assures us of the esteem and honor God wishes to bestow on our lives. When Daniel confessed his sin and his people’s sin, the angel told him, “You are highly esteemed” (Dan. 9: 23).
Years ago I had the wonderful opportunity to spend an entire summer at an urban church in Ohio. An atmosphere of esteem for one another permeated the church. Students, older members, and singles all were encouraged by the pastor to stand and be recognized for their accomplishments such as a scholarship to a university, an anniversary, or a new job. A hard-working choir member who helped raise a significant amount of money to buy new music was even given a simple crown to wear for one Sunday.
I had my own experience of receiving esteem from that beautiful group of believers. As a newcomer I was invited one Sunday to a young couple’s home for lunch. When I sat down to eat, I couldn’t believe my eyes. The wife had prepared not one, but three main courses. I kept looking for others guests to arrive, but slowly it dawned on me, They did all this just for me.
That summer I learned valuable lessons in what it means to esteem one another. Yet even better than the honor and respect this small, urban church accorded its members and guests is the esteem we receive from God when we confess our sins. We can face each new day with the comforting knowledge that God is honoring our life. Despite the difficulty, rejection, and even disrespect we may experience from others, we can rest in the knowledge that we are highly esteemed in the eyes of God.
THE WAY BACK
Sooner or later, all of us miss our stop. The good news is there’s a way back to the station. The transformation that can take place in our life after we’ve confessed our sins is no less than amazing: faith replaces fear, certainty replaces doubt, and honor replace shame. It’s an exciting journey.
If you’ve lost your way, the door to God’s mercy and grace is open. Why not get in and go home?
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Bob Moeller is a pastor and author, as well as radio host of The Marriage Minute, a daily program on the Moody Broadcasting Network. He and his wife, Cheryl, have recently released Marriage Minutes: Inspirational Readings You Can Share with Your Spouse (Moody Press).
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