A child's solemn conviction leads him to reverence God amid a revival meeting.
"THE WIND BLOWETH, &c."—It was on Sunday evening following the old Thanksgiving in Mass.,
* See "Letters on Revivals."
(says a writer in the S. S. Treasury,) that I left my father's house to attend a religious meeting in the neighborhood. The moon, as I distinctly recollect, had just appeared above the horizon, and cast its gentle beams full in my face, while all around was hushed in silent repose. I had walked but a few steps, when a strange solemnity stole in upon my heart. Whence it came I knew not. Why I should feel thus, I could not tell. But I was solemn, I was grieved: and as I walked slowly along, my burden increased, for a burden it was, and while I live I shall not forget the spot where I thought I should soon be pressed down to the earth.
At length I reached the place of worship. It was a private house that had seen many a hard winter, the humble abode of a widow in Israel. I entered and took my seat with some boys of my own age; I was then but little more than nine years old. They soon began to whisper and play, wishing me to join them. But I was wounded in spirit. I could not join them. I had no disposition to do so, and wondered that they could act thus in a place so sacred as that seemed to me. I kept silence and wished to remove from their company.
The neighbors having assembled, the services commenced. It was a conference and prayer meeting, the pastor being present and taking an active part. What was said by him, or by others, I cannot tell now, nor have I been able to tell from that day to this. I know that all who took part in the services were much engaged, and the effect on my mind was to increase my seriousness. I wept; I could not refrain from it. My heart was pained. I was in distress. My pious father, I think it was, sitting near me, and seeing my trouble, took me in his arms and abored to quiet me, thinking me unwell. But no, I was not sick. My body was not in pain. The arrows of the Almighty were in my heart, and under his rebuke I trembled.
I do not recollect as any one at the meeting found out the true cause of my sorrow; if so, I was not aware of it. After I returned home, however, my aged grandfather, a man that feared God, ascertained it. He was overcome by his feelings, as were indeed all in the house. It was a place of tears,—parents and grandparents mingled theirs with mine. But this did not relieve me; nor did I experience essential relief before retiring for the night, though, as I well remember, my father did so far compose himself as to commend me to God in fervent prayer.
I am the more inclined to think that the state of mind described above was the effect of Divine influence, from the fact that nothing had been said to me personally on the subject of religion. There was no revival among the people, and so no chance for the operation of sympathy; a powerful source of influence among children, as I have since had occasion to observe. From that day to this I have loved the church of God, and hoped for salvation through grace in Christ Jesus.