St. Augustine recounts his journey from skepticism and worldly ambition to spiritual awakening through the influence of Bishop Ambrose, illustrating God's providential guidance in leading him to faith. In this biographical sermon, St. Augustine reflects on his journey to Milan and his encounter with Bishop Ambrose, whose character and preaching played a crucial role in his spiritual transformation. Augustine candidly shares his initial skepticism and gradual awakening to the truth of the Christian faith, highlighting God's providential hand in his life. This sermon offers a profound insight into the process of conversion and the importance of godly mentorship.
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23. When, therefore, the officials of Milan sent to Rome, to the prefect of the city, to ask that he provide them with a teacher of rhetoric for their city and to send him at the public expense, I applied for the job through those same persons, drunk with the Manichean vanities, to be freed from whom I was going away--though neither they nor I were aware of it at the time. They recommended that Symmachus, who was then prefect, after he had proved me by audition, should appoint me.
And to Milan I came, to Ambrose the bishop, famed through the whole world as one of the best of men, thy devoted servant. His eloquent discourse in those times abundantly provided thy people with the flour of thy wheat, the gladness of thy oil, and the sober intoxication of thy wine.[146] To him I was led by thee without my knowledge, that by him I might be led to thee in full knowledge. That man of God received me as a father would, and welcomed my coming as a good bishop should. And I began to love him, of course, not at the first as a teacher of the truth, for I had entirely despaired of finding that in thy Church--but as a friendly man. And I studiously listened to him--though not with the right motive--as he preached to the people. I was trying to discover whether his eloquence came up to his reputation, and whether it flowed fuller or thinner than others said it did. And thus I hung on his words intently, but, as to his subject matter, I was only a careless and contemptuous listener. I was delighted with the charm of his speech, which was more erudite, though less cheerful and soothing, than Faustus\\
Sermon Outline
I. The Call to Milan
Application for rhetoric teacher position
Unaware escape from Manichean errors
Recommendation by city officials
II. Meeting Bishop Ambrose
Ambrose’s reputation and character
Initial admiration for eloquence
Growing personal affection
III. Spiritual Awakening
Listening beyond rhetoric to truth
Despair of finding truth outside the Church
God’s providential guidance
Key Quotes
“To Milan I came, to Ambrose the bishop, famed through the whole world as one of the best of men, thy devoted servant.” — St. Augustine
“And I began to love him, of course, not at the first as a teacher of the truth, for I had entirely despaired of finding that in thy Church--but as a friendly man.” — St. Augustine
“And thus I hung on his words intently, but, as to his subject matter, I was only a careless and contemptuous listener.” — St. Augustine
Application Points
Seek godly mentors who can guide you in your spiritual journey.
Be open to truth even when it comes from unexpected sources.
Trust in God's providence to lead you through periods of doubt and searching.
Frequently Asked Questions
Who was Ambrose and why was he important to Augustine?
Ambrose was the bishop of Milan, renowned for his wisdom and eloquence, who played a pivotal role in Augustine's spiritual conversion.
What was Augustine’s initial attitude toward Ambrose’s preaching?
Augustine initially admired Ambrose’s eloquence but was skeptical about the truth of his message.
How did Augustine describe his move to Milan?
He described it as an unknowing escape from the errors of Manicheanism and a step toward discovering the truth.
What role does divine providence play in Augustine’s story?
Divine providence is seen as guiding Augustine’s path, leading him to Ambrose and ultimately to faith.
Confessions - Book V - Chapter Xiii
St. Augustine
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