“Making peace with darkness is about saying in your heart “this far and no further.” It’s about holding on to something, or maybe it’s more than one thing, but your holding on to it. It is something deep in your heart that you know should be dealt with, crucified, but you say in your heart “I am not going to obey.”
Now its buried deep, you would never say it out loud, in fact you do not even want to think about it, but there it is, the shadow. You may believe it to be a small thing but it will come to identify you. Why? Because you have drawn a line in the sand. You are holding this thing back for yourself.
Now, it may be that the thing is not in and of itself inherently sinful, but it has you. It could be to do with security or insecurity. How you look? A foundation of your life that the Lord wants. And you have decided in your heart that He cannot have it. And you make your peace with the darkness. You know in your heart that you are not going to obey God in this. It’s a small thing in the grand scheme of things you say, and that may be so. Yet, you shall go no further in the Kingdom and somewhere inside of you you know that this is deal you have made.
It’s offensive to say it out loud is it not brothers and sisters? Say what? “I am not going to obey you in this Lord.” But there it is and fooling ourselves like the Ostrich burying it’s head in the sand will not make it go away. It will always be there and it has stunted your growth and you are good with it. Well maybe not good with it, but you know, there it is. We rationalize it dont we brothers and sisters?
It is not that you are not saved, for you are still saved but whatever way we look at it it is a declaration we have made and it is heard in the Kingdom of God. You have limited yourself. Not God, God does not limit His children. When we stand before Him, we will know as we are known and we will weep for the limitations we put on ourselves for this beggarly thing whatever it was. And God will wipe the tears away. Tears of regret.
Now brothers and sisters, if you are reading this then there is still breath in your body and you can still choose this day to break the treaty that you made with the darkness.
Let’s face it, it was not a peace we made for how can the child of God truly be at peace and be anxious for nothing when there is some kind of stronghold that dwells with our chests?
What is it that you know you have to give up? Sinful or not sinful but it stands as a marker, a stronghold between you and God who wants every part of you, every single part of you. Whatever it is you have held onto for yourself, the devil will beat you mercilessly with it. By an act of the will, obey God this night and let whatever holds you back die on the cross where it belongs.”
— Frank McEleney
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SI Moderator - Brandy Gordon
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