Today wasn't a good day for me. I was emotionally drained. It seems when I get where I believe I am suppose to be I don't stay there long, instead I start from the beginning. This cycle seems to repeat itself and I am just to the point where I don't want to try anymore. My thoughts today were just negative, 20yrs of trying and I am back where I started. It just doesn't make any sense.

Sometimes I feel as if I've been bewitched. The more I pray the worse it gets and when I don't pray the better it gets. Now that to me doesn't make any sense.

I thought that it would be a good idea if someone other than myself could pray for me.

I will help thee, saith the Lord.
Isaiah 41:14
This morning let us hear the Lord Jesus speak to each one of us: I will help thee. It is but a small thing for me, thy God, to help thee. Consider what I have done already. What! not help thee? Why, I bought thee with my blood . What! not help thee? I have died for thee; and if I have done the greater, will I not do the less? Help thee! It is the least thing I will ever do for thee; I have done more, and will do more. Before the world began I chose thee. I made the covenant for thee. I laid aside my glory and became a man for thee; I gave up my life for thee; and if I did all this, I will surely help thee now. In helping thee, I am giving thee what I have bought for thee already. If thou hadst need of a thousand times as much help, I would give it thee; thou requirest little compared with what I am ready to give. 'Tis much for thee to need, but it is nothing for me to bestow. 'Help thee?' Fear not! If there were an ant at the door of thy granary asking for help, it would not ruin thee to give him a handful of thy wheat; and thou art nothing but a tiny insect at the door of my all-sufficiency. 'I will help thee.'
O my soul, is not this enough? Dost thou need more strength than the omnipotence of the United Trinity? Dost thou want more wisdom than exists in the Father, more love than displays itself in the Son, or more power than is manifest in the influences of the Spirit? Bring hither thine empty pitcher! Surely this well will fill it. Haste, gather up thy wants, and bring them here-thine emptiness, thy woes, thy needs. Behold, this river of God is full for thy supply; what canst thou desire beside? Go forth, my soul, in this thy might. The Eternal God is thine helper!
Fear not, I am with thee, oh, be not dismay'd!
I, Iam thy God, and will still give thee aid.
Charles Spurgeon morning Jan. 16 am
An elderly black man who had a wonderful testimony of grace was once asked, "Daniel, how is it that you exhibit such peace and joy in your faith?" "Oh, sir!" he replied. "I just fall flat on God's 'very great and precious promises,' and I have all that is in them. Glory! Glory!" One who falls flat on God's promises knows that all the riches abiding in them are his. from faith papers. Streams in the desert Feb. 25

This article is very good too, Accessing God With Praise And Thanksgiving By Norval Hadley it is on sermonindex text sermons first page sixth article from bottom. I found it very enlightening. I will pray that the Lord hold your hand a little tighter in your hour of darkness, and that His wonderful help will shine thru like the rising of the sun.Oops this article is in the heading of classic Christian writings sixth down on left.