Dear Natalie,

Your plea pains my heart. I have been trying to find some way to help. Last night I remmebered 6 years ago when my husband had Carotid surgery and afterwards began experiencing unexplainable complications. Watching him suffer and being unable to help was crushing. I never cried in his presence but in my room and in prayers my tears flowed. It was only by God that I made it through those times. It seems that even family fails me in trials. I was trying to think of something someone may have said that lifted my spirits and I realize the only voice that offered comfort when I needed it was that of the Holy Spirit. Sure, my Mother called but she was no comfort. I called upon God and He gave me sleep when I needed it and strength to do what was necessary.

When you read the Psalms to your Husband, they are being 'read' to you, too.

"LORD I BEG YOU TO PLEASE SPARE HIS LIFE. RENEW HIS BODY, FILL.IT WITH STRENGTH. GIVE HIM THE OPPORTUNITY THAT HE IS ASKING TO LIVE FOR YOU." Dear Natalie, a gentle reminder here to pray for His will not ours. As much as I would like to 2nd your prayer, I do not know God's mind, or what is ahead and I think it best to prepare to bow to His will. If you pray in this fashion and His will is otherwise you will have no comfort. If you pray for His will and your Husband recovers, you will have joy, if your Husband goes to be with Jesus he will have no more pain and will have great joy. God will take care of you no matter what.

Spoken in love,
Janice

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Janice

Thank you Janice. I know you are right and that has been my position all along. Last night as I prayed I released my husband to the Father once more. I know that whatever the outcome, it is GOOD bc HE IS GOOD.It is watching the suffering and having so many setbacks that is so difficult. I wonder how much more I can take. I have other problems too. One of my daughters who is away from the Lord and refusing to come home and to even see her father in his illness bc of bitterness has developed cardiac problems. She has been having many fainting spells. I am desperate for her life, especially bc of her (lack of) position in Christ and my inability to help her in her illness as she refuses to live at home.

I wonder how much more I can bear. I mostly do not cry in my husband's presence. I know he needs me to be calm and strong for him. Family are well meaning, but there is nothing they can do physically, although their prayers are much appreciated. One particular family member has taken upon herself to make sure my kids are fed, which is something else I do not have to worry about. But as you said, it is the Holy Spirit that is OUR COMFORTER

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Natalie

Dear Natalie,

Your daughter will be in my prayers, too.

Is there any chance she is anorexic? Recently I had issues of heart problems/fainting and it was brought on by not eating enough. (I was not anorexic in the classic sense, just had reduced the amount I was eating to try and solve throat pain. I cut out too many calories as a consecquence.)

Job 13:15 Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him

Hold on, for He is holding on to you,
Janice

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Janice

Janice: Yes, I have been thinking that this may be at least part of the problem with my daughter. She is a vegetarian, but she has never properly balanced her diet as she should. During the summer, she was placed on antibiotics by the college Clinic (I think they thought she had H. pylori). She has a very delicate stomach and this heavy dose of antibiotic messed up her digestive tract and she could not eat well for months. She lost a lot of weight. I have counseled her about her diet and also asked her to stop being a vegetarian until she recovers some strength at least. I don't know if she will do it. All I can do is pray for her.

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Natalie

Dear Natalie,

Will she eat yogurt? That can be very helpful with getting over antibiotics. I am guessing she in in College. She can make yogurt in a crockpot for the price of milk. 8 cups of milk makes 8 cups of yogurt. If she is interested I will give you the directions. Cuts the cost of it down considerably.

I will continue to pray for her and your husband and you.

I am grateful for your reply before I go to sleep, it is good to know you are able to get on line and read a little.

Sleep well, knowing you are in God's hands.
Janice

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Janice

Dear Natalie,

Have you noticed how many views this thread has had? Over 900! In one of your posts you said, asking for your husband, "GIVE HIM THE OPPORTUNITY THAT HE IS ASKING TO LIVE FOR YOU." To testify to such a large number is a gift from God. Looking forward to seeing the fruit it produces but will have to wait until we join Jesus.

Praying for you and your family,
Janice

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Janice

Dear Natalie,

Want to let you know you are on my mind and in my prayers.

God be with you,
Janice

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Janice

I am praying too, Natalie...just haven't been able to post. Love, hugs, and prayers....

Praying...

Just do not ignore your own private time with the LORD during this time...it is essential for your own well-being. (I cared for a terminally ill adult daughter seventeen years ago. She was a 25YO with a husband and two children.)

God bless.

ginnyrose

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Sandra Miller

Dear Natalie,

There is no way to reach out to you except by this forum, I am comforted to remember you mentioned a family member who has been preparing meals for you. You and your whole family have been often in my thoughts and prayers these last four days. If you are reading these posts and not feel up to replying, that is OK, I understand and will continue to pray for you.

in love,
j

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Janice