What a sweet sweet blesssing when children of the Living God come together and carry one another burdens.

And we will "And hope maketh not ashamed because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given to unto us."

When I read all the replies tears welled up. Thank you everyone.
Mama I will do what you said asap I too feel the need to be discreet here. In fact I had to start this reply over after a little nudge.

I'm suffering really bad right now w/ a back issue but thought I would check in. I timidly got onto this blogging so I am very appreciative of the replies.

I truly want to be used of God. I am currently asking the Lord how I can be used to increase the kingdom of heaven by body count that is. I heard a testimony one evening approx. a month ago about how a hopeless young man on a mission to commit suicide came in contact w/ his Dad who left him at 3 yr. old. He confided through providence in a Pastor.
The Dad's testimony is what got me thinking. He was saved in prison and read Mt. 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."
So he felt that meant to him that if he would begin to take care of God's business God would take care of his including bringing his son back into his life. And God did just that the day his son was on a suicide mission. He was the Pastor.
Only God could and would do that, Amen?

So I began asking the Lord what could I do?

We have financial pressure but the bills do get paid just not any leftover. And I have a great desire to help the ex daughterinlaw where our son is failing in agreement w/ my husband. But even more important a huge desire to support one or two missions, GPA & VOM.

I need alot of prayer because I have this great vision of opening a business on a free and clear bus. lot for me to use. My vision is to give 50% of all my earnings to the Lord's work. My husband is in agreement and the first test came. I warned my spouse it (the test) would come and it certaintly did. From the property hauling away some scrap metal I made $120. After my husband almost waivered then gave in after I gave him all of my $60. I said a silent prayer to the Lord It would be nice if I could have at least $10 for my own vehicle and went in to pay for my husband's gasoline.
Well it only came to $44. My husband first words were I really thought it would take it all. I shared how I prayed and he replied well you got your first blessing girl and apologized for waivering.

It's all about asking big things from a indescribable big God for me but I guess I'm ready or trying to get ready to really put myself out there for Him.
But I know myself and I'm scared. I'll be having to put myself out in the public. I'm really battling fear right now, the fear of failure or if I'm not really hearing the Lord on this. In the mean time I have alot of stuff I've been given to get rid of and it's all on this place that I can use.

I have already begun landscaping w/ my own available resources to help maintain the place and looking into marketing possibly our landscaping skills and furniture that we build.

Even though the place keeps looking better and I made a few bucks I'm battling a fear issue from you know where.

I've been unemployed for over 6 mos. now so I'm feeling the $$ pressure on top of the personal. Trying to keep the Lord first in this huge opportunity. Please keep us in your prayers.



"We all should have eternity stamped upon eye eyeballs"
L. Ravenhill

Dear mama,

I did what you said but was unable to see browny's e-mail.

In the mean time to find browny I read some of her prev. post.

I just want to say I feel blessed to have stumbled upon a site like this. I hope I can be used by the Saviour as well to lift up encourage and edify the body such as I see hear. Browny you are truly a gem and my heart and prayers are now going up on your behalf. I didn't read to far but enough to hear about the surgery.
Continued strenth, love and hope abounding as you are recovering.

I really feel the need to log out now and just go pray as I have been challenged by all the love I see, and feel the need to be more like Him.

In Christ the Lord alone dear saints, thank you for your testimonies. sister -k-

Dear bro. and sis's in Christ

It's been less than a week since I've started blogging on SI. and like I said a First go round (blogging) for me> Not sure when My 1'st entry was but I've been so extremely sick since Fri. after Thanksgiving. The 1'st sign of nausea came immediately after I spoke w. my oldest Wed. I spent Thanksgiving composing an e-mail still in draft to him, literally heartsick but not giving up. Not sure when it will be sent yet. Fri. went well cooking for our get together to-come w/ all my kids including my grand ones. And they are that. My inspiration and motivation to be all that I can possibly be for my Saviour knowing I am helpless w/out Him, having absolutely no power on my own to sway the evil forces that be but in, on ,through Christ He will have the victory.

Well I just hung up the phone w/ my second born. Thankful for the opportunity to tell him how much I love him and share a memory I had of his heart toward God as a teenager. Also asked him to forgive me for not telling him enough how proud I am of him and how I tried so very hard in my own strenth to bring us all to Jesus only to make a mess of things. So graciously forgave me.. I see the Lord tugging in 3 of the 4 childrens hearts. The two middle kids even looking for a good church. And my husband shared that when the two sons and he were alone God came up and the youngest said I need the Lord more than anyone. It's the not so little things like this that causes my heart to declare, Oh, merciful, wonderful Saviour. I so love you. I know you did not begin a work that you are not able to complete.
Well I just wanted to say to Mama, Ginnyrose and appollos that you have ministered to my heart in volumes. I poured out my heart to the precious Lord and Saviour last night on our behalf. I want so very much to have his heart. I struggle w/ a spirit of pride that will visit me at the most intimate times w/ the Lord. I rebuke this flesh commanding it to be obediant to the high calling of Christ the Lord but it continues to sneak back in trying to take credit for the closeness of the Lord. So I cried in my despair for the good Lord to answer the prayers of my dear brother and sisters who have been praying longer than I for my own. I too appollos believe w/ every fiber of my being that I heard a direct loving encouragement "It is not a matter of If but When" for my own dear son. So I am willing to add my prayers not only to your own but before my own and pray Lord God if it please you to be so gracious and kind once again to a wretced sinner like me to use this prayer for the strenthening of our faith and delight of our hearts then please Lord come. Come quickly to Ginnyrose and appollos prayers prayers for their lost first for they have endured so much more and have not given up their faith. I am going to pray this prayer in all earnestness when I go to the Lord with the four of us in mind. I will continue to battle my flesh laying down at the feet of Jesus and he will have His victory. Oh, but what a precious joy to my heart if He would count me worthy of an answer to such a big prayer. I do believe He gives us the desires of our heart when we delight in him for I am an undeserving recipient of that very truth. And I do believe in asking for specific prayers all for the Glory of His majestic Holy Name. But even now the enemy lurks whispering are you so sure it's not for your own glory. To my reply well even if it is, greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world .. That is all the powers of darkness and yes even my own flesh that is enmity toward the Spirit.. But God be praised to do whatever He willeth to do. And He willeth to save souls of man in spite of themselves and careth not to share His Glory but delights just the same in our frailty to trust and obey to the best of our ability in humbleness and lowliness of mind. And this is my constant striving believing that the root of All evil is pride and the root of the heavenlies humility. Dear Lord have your way in our hearts knitting our hearts together in this spirit to prefer one another ahead of our own self. For these few that I have met in real time wherever they are have met a longing in my heart to love and to be loved like I have never been loved in the body of Christ before. I only want to do my part Lord we will meet someday and You will be the judge and that in the presence of all the saints.
Do your work, have your way in my hrart and the hearts of my bro. and sis's. I Love you Lord, so desperately need you am not ashamed to say so.
Forgive the lenth of my letter dear saints, we are bound for the promise land and what it will be like I can only imagine. Nothing like I have seen in this shadow of death save for the continual merciful grace of God through His only begotten Son.
Fearful of rebuke but sending off just the same. Tired of holding my intimacies too close and yet feeling He has so much work to do in this guarded heart of mine. Have posted email mama if you still want to contact .
Your humble servant and sister in Christ through my prayers, The Lord bless you and keep you until that great day. Sister Karen

Dieingtolive,

I have just seen your posts....somehow when it gets off the front page, I don't always check and miss things. Thank you for sharing your heart. We are all frail, all works in progress, but our loving God surely hears our heartcries..I remind myself that HE loves them so much more than even a mother can! I am humbled by every prayer offered up for us, and pray as I am able for all the families with prodigals - there are others that you have not named...

I have em'd you privately.

Karen,

Your love and concern on our behalf is touching, in deed.
I do know God is watching over our prodigals - there is too much evidence otherwise...and this evidence is what shores up my faith that this is the reality. God loves our prodigals much more then we ever can or will. Since this is the case, I can rest in Him that he will work things out to facilitate repentance. Now all I have to do is wait - and waiting does not come easy for me, but it may come easier then it used to 19 years ago.

God bless you and yours...

ginnyrose

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Sandra Miller

Amen!

The fervent effectual prayers of the righteous availeth much. And the inppotunatve prayers he will answer indeed.. I love Him so much. My heart will never fail to trust Him. He has stuck closer to me than a brother from my childhood up. He gave us these precious children to give back to him and we will do just that. Some planteth a seed, some watereth but it is our precious God that giveth the increase. I have no doubt. We are called to live by faith and not by sight in such times as these. He honors His word even before His own name. Glory to his wonderful name. The name above all names. All mighty King of all kings. Thank-you

Amen to this sister...Amen!

Bless you, may the peace of the Father be in your heart.
browny.

Wow,

What a wonderful day it was yesterday. And all through a funeral I almost didn't attend because of feeling so sick for almost a week now!! Not one to go down that easy, this has been bad.

I want to Praise the Lord. Faith is the Victory. Hang on Dear Saints.. Walk by Faith. ENJOY every little hint of His working and don't let the enemy still your Joy.
Keep looking to the hills where our help comes from, our help comes FROM THE LORD!!!! Pray for one another as if it was your dearest friend. Stay on the knees, wrestle, tell the TRUTH! He knows our heart better than we do. I would like you Lord to tell me something about myself. Tell me Lord what am I missing here? Open my heart and eyes to serve those you have placed in my life as you would have ME to. I'm no accident, they're no accident, we here together now what? I Love You Lord. Time to get to work, the house is a wreck.

First, a pleasure to "meet" you, ma'am. I especially like your blog name :O)

You wrote:
"I want to Praise the Lord. Faith is the Victory. Hang on Dear Saints.. Walk by Faith. ENJOY every little hint of His working and don't let the enemy still your Joy."

I just wanted to jump into this discussion among my sisters and mothers in the Faith, to encourage you all, and you dear Sister in particular. Your words are an encouragement to me, and reveal the Spirit of the living God inside of you.

God bless you and your family. And Blessings to all.

Be well today,
Doug

Thank you dietolive,

Yes, I'm still very much a work in progress :)

I'm going to be jumping on here soon to share in more detail I hope just what a blessed Wed. it was. And talk about those HINTS of our precious Lord's continual WORK on this precious to Him family..

I do walk by Faith and not by sight most of the time, but I feel Him and more than that I'm still here!!!
My family, though a little battle scarred is still IN Tack!!!
And He that began HIS good work in me I pray has me more than ever.

I just want to close w/ a word of encouragement.

HE started it, HE can finish it.

Pride is all of Hell/ Humility All of Heaven

Love does cover a multitude of sins - but it's not our love
it's HIS. And that for me was born in the prayer closet. And for that the trials are worth it. So some have to learn the hard way or hmmmm... doesn't matter - if I recieved certain circumstances totally unforseen (so I could have ducked and ran!!!,ha) or/and wholeheartedly accepted to go down a road marked unbound for the Kingdom of God, Rms. 8:38 still PREVAILS!!! Glory to Him alone. Thank you Jesus, thank you so much for your undieing LOVE.

I've got a truckload of work but will be praying for all. Especially those that came into my heart one very special evening.. God's Love Sis -k-