i'm gonna state to you all what i'm expecting from our Lord beginning in 2005, but first this bit of my life's testimony ...
i've been saved for 25 years now, but called from inception in my mothers womb, and predestined to God before the Lords setting of the foundation of the world ... What a mind blowing blessing for all of us in Jesus!
As far back as i can remember i have always experienced the supernatural/spiritual in my life ... As a small (pre-school) child i was constantly harassed by nightmares of what i once called monsters that caused my parents great alarm, and that i had no explanation for till i began Catholic school and saw these self same creatures depicted as demons tormenting people in hell ... Soon after, at 6 years of age, my parents became Jehovah's Witnesses and the demonic activity in my life dramatically increased, so much so to the point that my dad began to confess that he had also experienced similar occurences thruout life, and now he said it seemed to have been transfered to me ... At age 6 (till about age 10) it graduated to two shadow heads that used to sit atop my closet door and discuss me ... Don't ask me how i knew it, but i knew they were talking about me and i told my parents so ... Then one day i was thumbing thru a JW publication and came across a drawing of two curly headed, bearded, Hittite's that looked exactly like the two shadow heads, at which point i told my dad ... Then (after age 10) it esculated to my seeing a full fledged figure of what appeared to be a shadow man who would walk across my room, stop in front of my bed, stare at me, and then proceed to walk right out of/thru my window ... Well back in the 50's and 60's children weren't taken to shrinks, so my parents answer to all such activity was pray it out, whip it out, or give him time and he'll grow out of it (which did not happen until after i got saved at age 29) ...
My dad was a lot more understanding of my episodes because he'd had experience with this "thing" as my mom called it, but to my mom it was most unnerving, especially in light of my mother recieving a dream that i was the last person taken off the Earth before Jehovah brought on Armageddon ... i wrestled in fear with demonic activity, and wonderment of God's talking to me, in total spiritual blindness up until my salvation experience at age 29, and then that's when the Lord brought it all together for me ... It was right after He used a Baptist minister to knock the scales off my eyes about the Holy Ghost also being God that the real spiritual fireworks began to take place in my life! ... i remember at age 30 three shadow men demons harassing me to no end in that strange realm they occupy right between our being asleep and awake, and hearing the Holy Ghost say, "You have power and authority over all satanic principalities, dismiss them from your presence in the name of Jesus, and by power of His blood" ... i actually woke up in the middle of my bed, on my knees, with my right hand up in the air with pointed finger as i dismissed the last of the three, watching each of them disappear at the name of Jesus! ... That's when i realized that in Christ i have power over the devil and all his dominion ... They've not harassed me since, and my sleep is clear of any demonic disturbances ... it was also at age 30 that the Lord really began to speak to me in my spirit in a way that He'd not done before ... As i said, He'd always spoken to me from time to time prior to my (true) salvation experience, but afterwards He spoke so strongly, and clearly to me, until it caused many around me to begin to fear for my sanity, because in my innocense whatever i heard i repeated ...
The Lord has not seen fit to give me staggering visions like He's given to many, nor does He cause me many dreams (other than the time i saw three angels fly past me in a scene reminiscent of a Rosseau painting), His dealing with me has always been with recieving and distributing a "word" He's given to me, and primarily for the past 21 years to one Bishop, and one Church, although in the past two months He's given me "words" and "instructions" for 5 individual saints about their going thru the open door He's set before them ... So all this to set up telling you what i expect of the Lord beginning in 2005, and how i can even set my mouth to say this ...
Since age 30 at the end of every year (Dec.) the Lord would send my spirit into a state of cogitation that at first was pleasant, but soon ceased to be after i discovered that a mountaintop experience with him usually meant a tossed in the pit experience with men, especially saved men ... i came to dread when He'd give me a word for my Bishop, and was so thankful when His year end/new year beginning "word" to me was primarily about myself repenting, cleaning up, and dropping off things that He no longer wanted to tolerate in my own life, but by the time He got to giving me the second message to my Bishop/church He had to bring me from out of the belly of the whale because i'd run after the experience of delivering His first "word" ... The second "word" in 1999 to my Bishop/church was harder to deliver, but the third word, the Joel word at the beginning of 2004 was the most difficult thing i've yet had to do in Christ, as the devil fought me in such a way as to even affect my health, which the Lord allowed to see if i'd let that stop me ... It didn't, for the more i felt attacked of the enemy, the more and more i became convinced that the Joel "word" i believed the Lord had given me was the most important to date, so i strove forward on His power, and delivered that word ... It was amazing, for as soon as i completed my task, the satanic oppression stopped, but man did i feel beat up, and i remember crying out to God, "Lord you've got to step in and do something about this Yourself, it's time that You show Your almighty unmistakable hand" ...
Well it's almost needless to say that as with the other three "words" the Lord gave me to carry to my Bishop they were ignored, but soon after i heard the Lord say in my spirit something to the effect of, "You have done all that I have required of you in this season, cease as I will personally deal with the matter from henceforth" ... i can't tell you the sense of peace that came over my soul in hearing this, and as each day goes past in this month of December/04 without my hearing a "word" from the Lord the more calm, and peaceful i become ... Saints this is the first time since i was 30 (and i'm now 54) that the Lord has not cogitated, or unctioned my spirit with any do's or don'ts for my Bishop, His church, or myself ... Every years end/beginning for the aforementioned time He's always told me what He expected of me, but not this year, and so now i'm anticipating miraculous, Holy Ghost inspired occurences in the Body of Christ, and the world itself, beginning with the New Year ...
i'm expecting in 2005 for God to somehow (He knows how) convict my Bishop and his ministerial staff to fulfilling His desire of Joel that they get between the porch and the altar weeping in repentance and seeking His face ... After that i'm expecting to hear my Bishop call our entire congregation to "solemn assembly" at which point we'll all collectively do what our priests have already done, and we'll continue to do it till we hear from heaven in the form of a newly granted Holy Ghost powered Revival of Revivals ... i'm expecting the mother of all revivals to break out in my church, contagion the city of Philadelphia, the entire USA, and eventually the globe ... i'm expecting God's judgment(s) upon the Church that will soften us up to His mind of the harvesting of souls, and His judgment(s) on the world to soften them up to being more receptive to our message of grace ... i'm expecting God to show up in ways that are unmistakable manifestations of His almighty presence and hand in the affairs of mankind ... As i stated on another thread, "i think that God's prophets were/are like the family doctor whom the Lord sends to His Body to say, Hey if you quit (repent) now of all these bad habits you've picked up along the way, you won't have to see the Surgeon in the future ... i think the Body of Christ now has to see the Surgeon" ... Beginning with 2005 i'm expecting "the Surgeon" to perform surgery on His Body, a "tare-endectomy" if you will, and a "great falling away" of the sickly, bloated weight we've put on due to our worldly over indulgences ...
i pray God that this is the case for if not i've asked Him if i can disassociate myself with all things Pentecostal, the COGIC denomination, my current church assignment especially, for i've had just about all i can stand of services structured by "the program", and powered by emotion instead of pure worship in Spirit and in truth ... If i hear one more health/prosperity formula sermon from our pulpit, instead of repentance to purity power, and the seeking of His kingdom, and His righteousness, i think i'll just throw up ... It expressly states on our program "this is the order of service unless the Holy Spirit dictates otherwise", yet He never does ... As i've asked many, including my Bishop, "Why is that"? ...
i'm expecting in 2005 for the Holy Ghost to dictate otherwise at my church/the Church, for if He doesn't, i've said to the Lord, "Please send me to a quiet little Presbyterian Church somewhere so that i can live out the rest of my Christianity in a more quiet setting ... For if i have to be a part to error then let me be a part of a more quiet error, because there is nothing more blatantly disturbing to me than a bunch of loud Pentecostal saints clamouring in flawed worship ... Ugggghhhh ...
In 2005 i'm expecting God's unmistakable, miraculous hand of correction ... This would make my New Year most Happy! ... Amen
- HAPPY NEW YEAR -
MAY 2005 PROVE TO BE THE YEAR OF HIS DIVINE CORRECTION
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