From "The Lord my Portion" for November 5 by Watchman NeeOh, Lord, wherewith shall I save Israel? behold, my family is the poorest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my fathers house. Judges 6.15. It is relatively easy to be humble before God; but to be humble before men or to esteem others as more excellent than oneself is extremely difficult. To say I am the least is comparatively easy, but to confess that I am the least in my fathers house is not easy. To acknowledge that my fathers house is the poorest is not too hard, yet to admit that my fathers house is the poorest in Manasseh is most humiliating. He whose face shines and is unconscious of it, though others can see the light of his countenance, is an overcomer. All who look at mirrors in an attempt to see the light on their faces are definitely not overcomers. Although David was anointed, he looked upon himself as a dead dog (1 Sam. 24.14). Overcomers are those who have the reality of, yet not the name of, overcomers. CFP Newsletter & Daily Devotional
To acknowledge that my fathers house is the poorest is not too hard, yet to admit that my fathers house is the poorest in Manasseh is most humiliating.
"True humility carries the cross of shame, not generally but particularly. not with the mass of humanity where can I easily be hidden, but alone as if I were the only sinner that ever lived."Amen! The Apostle Paul had such great revelation of the Lord Jesus and the Church, yet he referred to himself as "the chief of sinners."