Questione,I do not even know if you are male or female. So let me encourage you with what has helped me and was given to me by the Lord... Years ago the Lord showed me that things done in the dark doesn't hold as much power over you if you confess them to the LIGHT! So began the wildest journey of my Christian walk!! In my car or when I knew I was good and alone, through tears and total humilation and embarrassment (even though no one was around), I began to describe outloud to the Lord what was in my mind and going on in my thoughts. (Your wife or husband does NOT need to hear it, it will only hinder them; God is the only one who can help us with this kind of stuff and He is there to listen and to help). Yes, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit know our very thoughts but we still need to confess them. We are too even bring them under obedience but since I didn't know how to do that except to bring them to Him and lay them out before Him and say, "Here is what I've been hiding from you all these years. Here is every last thought, Lord." I'll be honest, I was humilated beyond measure to give voice to what I kept hidden for years and do you know what? It began to not have the power or attraction that it did in the dark! It will eventually take all the wind out of the devil's sails. It was a process and I still have to tattle on the devil at times! Praise God! I write this out of a humble heart and hope this might help you or someone else because I give God ALL the praise for what He has done for me... like the song, "It is no secret what God can do. What's He's done for other's, He'll do for you!!"There is hope, bro or sis, do not give up - He is FOR you and not against you! God bless, Lisa
Ok, I bore my heart for no reason I read now!! LOLOL That is ok... the truth is in the light. I can only pray that it might make sense to someone who needs it out there. To God be all the glory!God bless you,Lisa
The Lord who is your Lord moves and has His being in you. So you sharing your heart was not for no reason. I thank you for being willing to share these things. It is indeed encouraging.I will say that I at one time believed that I had the luxury of struggling with pornography. I believe I was decieved in thinking that I could go on 'stuggling' with that sin while seeing the Blood of Jesus like tap water that I could just plead over my sins. Somehow I felt God would understand my stuggle and let me into Heaven if I died in that state. I had a terrifying dream that obliterated that deception.I did painfully confess my sin to the fellowship the Lord had joined me to and began to aggresively give myself to those activities in God that make freedom possible. I remember when I went to a navy base pool and for the 1st time in my entire life I did not sin with my eyes. I found an astounding stength and fortitude that had alluded me all my life in the Kingdom which is over 2 decades. I have found the Grace in the Divinely powered weapons that God has given to His people that brings freedom from strongholds that are decades old. And the only gaurantee that that freedom will remain is my daily decision to engage God and put my body in subjection like Paul encouraged.When Paul said fight,labor and wrestle and Jesus sais strive they meant it. If we dont do those things we will be ravaged by the flesh and ultimately disqaulified. Thanks again Lysa.