Hi RediThanks. It is wonderful that you did come back to the Lord. I also had a period of backslidding a long time ago and remember how ripped to pieces my heart was in regret when the Lord accepted me back and gave me His love.The Lord revealed to me that it was by faith we are sanctified and not by striving, which was the reason I gave up previously. He gave me a pure heart or rather let me see how it was already mine but I had been striving in the flesh.This time it was not backslidding. I was not in a church because I was housebound mainly and it was a dark night because I kept crying out to the Lord to show me my sin but there was silence.I had been waiting for healing too but it eventually has come through a different way than I imagined - the natural way which is available for all. The foods we eat make us sick and we can reverse these diseases.God bless Brother.