Having watched the compilation, I still remain what I always am...wondering what you mean by the fear of YHVH.
I am completely aware of His awesome power, and the jealosy with which He regards us...wanting our bridal eye to never wander from Him, and the overwhelming knowledge of His justice, but I hear the preachers preaching fear, and wonder what emotion we are supposed to walk in when we are wholly saved from YHVH's rage by the death and resurrection of Yeshua.
How can I walk in the peace that Yeshua offers, if I am afraid of YHVH?
YHVH Saboath knows me through and through. There is nothing that I do not think and feel that He does not know, and I know that in our conversations I am too familiar with Him, irreverent, even contentious, but I respect Him without measure, and He must know that.
He also does not thunder in my ear, nor am I to be in His unbearable presence until I am resurrected to another place and time, at which time I will be overwhelmed by the unutterable power He holds over me, and all things. I too will fall to my face...how could I not?
But Adonai has made me, and led me, and has given me into the hands of His Son, Yeshua, to be healed and made whole by Him, and to be raised up in Yeshua's righteousness...not my own. I have none of myself, anymore than I have the power to make myself over into what YHVH wants of me...my only task is to submit to His direction through the Holy Spirit, and to allow YHVH to do what He wants of me, and be what He wants me to be in His power and direction.
I love YHVH, and Yeshua, and the Ruach haKodesh, but I do not fear them for me. I am in terror over what others will face, who choose not to be washed and redeemed by Christ, but I do not fear in the sense that everyone seems to be getting at.
And yet I understand fear, and terror, and have felt them about the future days to come, and been reassured by YHVH that I am not to fear, but to rest in Him. Does not every meeting in the Scriptures with angels, or with the great I Am in any form begin with the words, 'do not be afraid'?
And it isn't that I love YHVH or Yeshua as I should...I know I don't, but all the years of my studying have told me that I must learn to trust, and lean on Adonai.
How can I trust Him if I am to fear Him at the same time? Admire, and delight in the sheer grandeur of His power? Do I not shrink from the extent of the building rage in Him at the continous sin and evil in the world? Of course. Yes, He can kill me if He likes, and even consign me to Hell, for I certainly deserve it, but we are supposed to be trusting in YHVH's mercy through the death and resurrection of Yeshua, for our ultimate end, and for every day we walk in this life, through the New Covenant that was cut in Yeshua's blood.
Please, please tell me what I am to fear, what I have missed, what I do not understand, lest I not know, and err all the more.
But if I, a Believer, am to fear YHVH, and not love and trust Him the more every day to keep the promises He made to all of us through Yeshua, what am I supposed to do?
Q
|