Dear Justified,You are in a pitiful situation, one that is troubling you much. Since it is troubling you, may I suggest that you go to battle with this on your knees before the throne of God. When ever it hits you, go to your knees and cry out to God for his mercy! Do not blame God! Instead tell him what's on your heart. Admit to him your weaknesses or whatever and tell him how you are unable to cope with this issue! Then listen to His still small voice. (Too many times we have stifled that voice and can no longer hear it because we have seared our conscience.) And keep fighting until the victory comes - it may take some time, but it will come.Do not forget - God is more interested in you then you are!Blessings,ginnyrose
_________________Sandra Miller
1 John 3:20 For if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and knows all things.1 John 4:4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.God bless youEthan
_________________Shankar