I believe that the Lord has lead me to this site, and though I am new to this site, I have been walking with the Lord for sometime. On another topic, I will share the miracles the Lord has done in my life, but there is still on area, whereas, I feel as if I am under almost constant attack. I will need to go back just a little, so you will have some insight as to why.
After being told since I was 18, I would never have children, the Lord blessed me at 30 with my son. This was truly a miracle, cause we didn't use any medical intervention, just faith in our Lord. I remember saying to my husband, "if it's the Lord's will, than I will have a child". I didn't even realize that when I uttered those words, I was actually a couple weeks pregnant.
I had a very hard delivery, I know that I came close to death. Then I came home with my son, and within 1-2 weeks, I knew there was a problem w/him. This went on for 3 weeks, and to anyone who is a parent, you can only understand the pain and fear of that. For weeks, I could not convince anyone that there was something wrong, then 5 dr's later, they finally got it. He had surgery @4 weeks, and made a complete recovery. Until @10 mos, he had internal bleeding, and almost lost him again. (I will later go into that story, bcz it truly showed me God's miracle and God's Love).
My son is now 8 years old, and since the time that I went through what we did when he was little, I have been suffering from anxiety and panic attacks. I know that it was triggered from the events that I went through with my son, and yes, I have been to drs, been prescribed all kinds of medications, to no avail. Later I was prayed over, and for a long time anxiety all but went away, and hadn't had a panic attack in 6 years.
Well for some reason, the anxiety started back on me just before this summer. And since that time I had two panic attacks. For someone who had never had a panic attack, they are horrible, and words can't describe. Last night when I was in the throws of a panic attack, and my husband assuring me that I was okay, I looked up at a plague that I have in my kitchen, that says "Prayer Changes Things". It's really strange, cause it almost looked lighted up, as if it was a sign from God, to pray my child, pray. He has delivered me before, and pray He will deliver me again, and I know that if more than one person comes into agreement with the Lord, it shall be done.
So I come to you, to my brother & sisters in Christ, and ask that you pray for me, and that we come into agreement that this spirit fear is taken from me. I don't know how some of you will take this, but I truly feel this is a spiritual battle, and nothing else. I know this, cause I have been delivered before. Why it has come back on me, I don't know, basically I feel that satan wants to take my joy. This morning I got up and blessed my home, and rebuked all negative feelings, spirit of fear, and oppression from my home. So now I come to you and ask that you pray for me, ask that our Lord Jesus will remove this from me, once and for all.
Please, I beg of your prayers, cause I don't want this on me anymore. Though I have prayed, and I still feel the fear, it doesn't want to let go. Though I have rebuked it, it wants to have a strong hold on me. I totally have faith in our Lord Jesus Christ, there is no doubt in my mind that He can and will take this from me.
Sister in Christ, Rebecca
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