Another thought that I had during the day regarding this topic is that Paul said: 2Co_12:10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. And don't get me wrong Ginny. I think I know what you mean when you say, "How tough am I". I think the weaker we are willing to be in our own strength the stronger we are in Christ (because He is actually being strong in us). Psa_61:3 For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy. Pro_18:10 The name of the LORD is a strong tower: the righteous runneth into it, and is safe.